Fernando Torres has revealed his mental torment at being one of the world’s best, to a total flop at Chelsea.
But the Spanish striker still believes he has more to offer the club, and is willing to prove his worth next season after becoming a bench player under Mourinho.
Torres explains that he moved to Chelsea for £50 million pounds to play alongside Nicolas Anelka but he was soon relegated to the bench.
Since then, Torres has displayed some poor performances and has failed to be as prolific as he was at Liverpool.
“I understood nothing of what had happened,” he told French magazine So Foot. “I started to get to know the bench. I reassured myself by saying things would soon change. Villas-Boas arrived, then Di Matteo but it was always the same: one day I played, the next not.”
“When you play, you do not ask yourself how it feels to be on the bench. You have to live it to understand how difficult it is to be there without being there.”
“To enter a match knowing you do not have the confidence of the coach. To play when you simply don’t have the habit of playing. Me, I felt bizarre, I had the feeling of getting tired quicker, of being heavier. I had no gas. You have to fight against a lot of things to get off the bench, sometimes even against yourself.”
“Today, I am a different player but I am not going to lie to you: the player that I was, the one who started all the matches with a guaranteed place, I really miss sometimes.”
“At one point, I even sat myself down to watch videos of my goals: I wanted to understand what I was doing before when I was scoring.”
By Ollie Brown
